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As a child, and actually until 2014, I thought I hadn’t lost anything when I ceased to go to school and get an education, because my parents and all the adults I knew also had higher educations, but they were in shit and received 10—20 thousand roubles and never ate steaks. And that’s why I simply did not see the connection between education and eating steaks, driving imported (expensive) cars or living in expensively furnished flats and moving by taxi and traveling abroad. Everyone I knew in my childhood, and I lived in a shithole as i said, who had such attributes of luxury, as I understood and I understood correctly, were people who was involved in corruptions of various sorts or who had risen thanks to the capitalism developing in our country at that time.

But now a lot has changed, various advanced professions have appeared, programmers, webcams. Establishing international relations between ordinary people has become easy. Yes, in my childhood they were already too – all these advanced programmers and English teachers with expensive tutoring prices ($10—50 per lesson, with the average monthly wage 300—600) – but it’s just my family didn’t get along with such and I didn’t know such, didn’t see an example. My parents, being sociophobic neurotics, hung out only either with freaky and poor people, or just with nobody. I didn’t even know, for instance, until 2015 that a Russian person can speak English at all (no one in the family or my or my family’s friends spoke any second language). I didn’t watch YouTube, I didn’t know shit about the up-to-date standards of life, in short. I only composed songs, occupied myself with buying and selling of flats and messaged girls in VK, jerking off many times a day.