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Well, the last paragraph, all that stuff about the absence of an example of successful adults, and about unforeseen professions and realities, I mean it’s just had I known all this, I would have not fucking counted on my small-scale real estate activity, or, much less, on composing-music kindergarten crap. Having realized this all in advance, I would have been quiet, as much as I could, and would have reached the army and there would have shown them what it means to put a gentle and sensitive neurotic narcissist in a row with all sorts of fucking degenerates.

In general, naturally, I did not have any girlfriend and couldn’t have. For the only time in my life, in 2021, one did message and come to like to me, we met a few times, even hugged. She was a 17-yo and with the prospect of a normal life with advantages over me in everything, which naturally did not suit me and infuriated me, and I left her city on time, before i would kill her. But that experience has been of use to me, I’ve realized that the only one with whom I can have sex, and so that it does not end for me in aggression and behind bars, is with some very crappy girl, who really sucks. Only such one is safe with me, and I can even pay her 400 rubles at a time. However, since she is a sucking piece of shit, not at all what I dreamed about, rather than the usual vaginal sex, I’m more interested in perversions with such a girl, all sorts of games with anuses, vomit, saliva. Tormenting, bougienage of urethras and all this sort of things. Some very slimy, perverted and shameful activities. But of course we can do vaginal sex all right too. She just needs to reach an orgasm and not stink. So right now I’m looking for such a girl. And I’m also writing my memoirs.